Last night as I was drifting off to sleep, I had a bazillion things to blog about, and now, my mind is utterly blank. I wonder why it is that I do all my best writing late at night. I think it has something to do with the collective unconscious and/or metaphysical silences.

My conversations with Brennan have definitely triggered various thought processes regarding human optimism in a better world versus holding on for dear life as our current world goes to hell. To be honest I'd rather be optimistic but am cursed by a mind that is unable to stop breaking things down. Someone says lets all plant trees, and I think of the fact that while planting trees is a great idea, what about the amazon rainforest's being cut down to grow soy.

I was out on the Peigan Reservation a while back and a friend started picking up garbage laying in a field. I started laughing, not because I don't believe in picking up trash, but because meanwhile there are people all over the reserve tossing garbage out car windows. If you want to affect change I told her, start a campaign to change local ideas surrounding garbage, otherwise, it's like doing the dishes in a house slated for demolition. Is that bleak? I dunno... but it goes back to trees and the idea of planting them. Sure we can plant trees, but who is really willing to plant a tree, where did the tree come from, who pays for the tree, how is it transported, what about infrastructure, and try telling a beggar in Bombay he needs to plant a tree, he has other things to worry about. Meanwhile as we're out doing good, planting trees, trying to mimic mother nature, they're still cutting down the amazon rain forest at an alarming rate, destroying a wealth of biological diversity for monoculture. This wealth of biological diversity can't be replaced by a tree planted by man.

I want to be clear, I'm not trying to diss the idea of planting trees, I do still think it's a good idea to pick up garbage and plant trees. It's just an example of how my mind works, I'm just having a hard time maintaining my optimism.

But does that mean give up on good ideas and good intentions.. NOOOO WAY!! Fight for the idealistic right to plant a tree and make change! Fight for consciousness and awareness! Fight for a better world! Fight against idiocy and environmental destruction! Fight, fight, fight!!! And if you still have ideals and optimistic views of the world, protect them with your life, don't back down to realism... Bah.. realism..

Change is the only constant, change is coming, it will be us who determine what our future becomes. The planet is a reflection of it's organisms. The planet mirrors our actions and if we change our actions, I think we can change our planet. Anything is possible... although maybe not probable ;-)

I've said it before, and I'll say it again. I think the real answers lay in stopping.. just stopping most of what we're doing. Mother Nature will then take care of the rest. How do we stop, that's the million dollar question.

peace,
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